Hermosa & the Bi☥ch

Family... I love y'all... frm a distance. Partially cuz I moved away, partially cuz some of y'all just distance. But with the new year, let's bring about change *in my President Obama voice* Resolution 1: K.I.T. (keep in touch)  A phone works two ways. As well as answering incoming calls,u can make outgoing calls. It's a new age in technology,learn how to text. At least once a week, a, "Hi, how have u been? Love u. Ttyl (talk to you later)" call/text would be nice. Also it helps to respond to the calls/text u receive.   Resolution 2: Holidays come every year & y'all kno we like to eat. Plan ahead by like 2 wks what we should do, when, where, & who contribute what. Just that simple. Resolution 3: Birthdays &/ Christmas. It makes gift shopping easier to know clothes & shoe sizes,favorite color; toys,sports,games that u &/ ur family are into. Oh & if u need small appliances (microwave, toaster, blender type) let me know BEFO

Ok with New Year's Eve tomorrow & ppl especially me talkin bout; New Year,New Me or no more drama or out with the old, blah blah blah, I decided it best I inform my friends of what changes they need to make as well. I'm all for lovin thm as they are,this have nothin to do with love. A real friend keep it 100 so I'm being a real friend. Resolution numero uno: K.I.T. Keep in touch. A text/tweet/Facebook me at least twice a week. Idc if it reads, "Bitch, I'm alive." I mean tht info is nice to know. Resolution B: Plan things. That means think of something you my friend like, Google search it + LOCAL city & state, click every link if need be til u find 1 tht is what u lookin for, find out time & places. Then txt/email/tweet/Facebook event me bout it. I will ignore msgs suggesting we hang out BUT I got to plan it. Next resolution: Be dependable. If the only thing u can be depended on is bein UNDEPENDABLE,u failed life. Better get some busine

i like my body when it is with your body. It is so quite new a thing. Muscles better and nerves more. i like your body. i like what it does, i like its hows. i like to feel the spine of your body and its bones, and the trembling -firm-smooth ness and which i will again and again and again kiss, i like kissing this and that of you, i like, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes over parting flesh ... And eyes big love-crumbs, and possibly i like the thrill of under me you so quite new -E. E. Cummings

The back & forth in relationships is a child's game. Real adults prefer role playing. Steady creeping & cheating is for the kids, grown-ups have couples' fun. Tellin all ur business/posting it is for adolescents. Privacy is considered adult- content. ~ O Beau

Look I kno I don't make things easy. But thinking of life without u causes me to lose sleep. I'm scared of what tha future may bring. I need to know my spot is permanent on this team. I'm not a clone of any1 else from ur past. I rather die before I lose what we have. I would live in a box, out the car, or even a shoe. Doesn't matter as long as I'm livin with u. I love you so you're stuck with me. Tomorrow is not guranteed. So take my love now, it's all u need. I want to give you all my love. When will you be ready? ... Beautiful Play on Words...

Anxious for love we never learn who each other really is Excited by sex we never experience passion On the quest to happiness we never fully understand our heartaches Pissed over the mistakes of giving ourselves to others, we never appreciate the company shared

     I hate having to choose between having friends or having a boo. Why isn't there an option ME, which includes doing whatever makes ME happy?      Funny my #1 has to be either a partner or my buds. Shouldn't I come 1st?     Doesn't matter the order after because no one is a winner so why should their place be remembered?     I'm suffocating from the inability to breathe. The constant smothering is a pillow over my airways.      If my happiness is what y'all claims matter then LET ME BREATHE. Or live with the fact that y'all were the death of me... Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3

Just read yet another posting of a single female with child(ren) belittling a single male with whom said child(ren) was conceived. Not only did the female trash him but her mother co-signed (as usual gotta have at least 1 other female as hype person). The female's mother compared being a dad vs. being a father to point out that if said male was more than a sperm donor, he would be there & supportive(financially) [thou she said more, it sums up to those 2 things minus the fancy wording]. My problem with this is 1) why is this on the internet? You, as in child's mom, couldn't phone him, as in child's dad? I mean if you all's parenting issues are that severe they need to be seen instead of heard either write letters or get court documentation aka PUT IT ON PAPER. 2) It is easy for you to be in your child(ren) life. You adjust so that your life & theirs is balanced but do you/did you calculate in his life? Are you trying to meet him halfway when he makes adjustm

I love you is some strong words and they carry some very big responsibilities. And I'm in love but these responsibilities are becoming too much. I don't want to have my heart broken but staying or going will leave me hurt. It's a lose/lose for me. I'm trying to trust but how do you, why should we trust people with our precious hearts? People don't know how to take care of things that doesn't belong to them. I wonder if he means the things he says. He promised to not intently hurt me but should I believe he will keep these promises?I see love in his eyes 4 me but lust in his actions for others. I'm not going sweat it or at aleast I will try not to. God will get me through this so I put our passion, our love, our trust, and our meanings in GOD's hands. If it's his will it shall be done... ... Beautiful Word Play

The memories of last nite when you joined me in the tub and how when you brushed me as you climbed in triggered something within. My juices got to flowing miraculously and uhh the way you felt inside me. The way my vagina hugged you never have you experienced this kinda warmth. Member how you cradled my hips as I rode  The look in you eyes as you slip in and out... of consciousness.  The music we made a lovely melody of "ohh baby you taste so sweet" as your tongue glide across my clit while you use it to write the alphabets my toes curled, my fingers grab your back, the sheets, your firm little ass cheeks the feeling of your love drippin on my skin  I take u in and devour so many positions our bodies intertwine on the couch, on the floor, on the kitchen counter, against the front door… "Baby, don't stop… more, more… deeper I wanna feel u in my lungs… faster" You go harder your stroke I'm speakin in tongues… "Whose is it?" "Baby it's yours&

Keep your head up! Live and let GOD! My past is just that and my future is whatever I make it. Nobody knows what I can accomplish so I won't let them tell me what I am destined to be. Negativity will not surround me, will not harm me, will not be me nor control me. Please take this how you want to but you if you on that BULLSHIT then you must get to walking. I'm cleaning up my life so to all that strife I now say "Goodbye!""Deuces!" Can some1 please tell me what have I done to cause all this negativity to be in my life. I did not ask 2 b born that was God's choice. I did nothing to no1 but as a child I was picked on whether it was @ home or @ school I was miserable. As I got older the situations got worse. I lost my baby brother when he was 18 months old. He was born w/ half his brain. I was 7 and my mom didn't rock me that night. I loved reading books and I still do so. I love music all kinds and still do. So I would put my music on and curl up in a

( self haircut having a me,myself,and I moment) November 22,2009 I think... My life was almost over. Literally everything spun out of control. I crashed,I was broken,and my pieces never were put back together. Lies,decit,secrets,mysteries,friends,lovers,court,jail,probation,eviction,unemployment,moving,prostitution,trusting,non-believing,praying,crying,fighting,drinking,fucking,pregnancy,births,weddings,illnesses,surgeries,flat tires,broken windows,starving,stealing,begging,avoiding... This has been my life for almost a year. I want to change everything about me. I want a new beginning. & This isn't even a step in tht direction...

People often say they do not want to live with a person they are intimate with prior to marriage. They say that shacking up is taking advantage of the purpose of marriage. Me, I just changed my mind about it. In order to say you are waiting for marriage,you must first know what marriage is. According to the B I B L E, marriage is God’s “fix” for the fact that “it is not good for the man to be alone” ( Genesis 2:18). Thus when man finds the right woman he will become "one flesh" with her. He will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh. Becoming one is the physical union of sexual intimacy. If I understand correctly, boy meets girl, boy and girl build a house together, boy and girl make house a home. Well in the biblical sense. In society's state of mind, it is totally different. There has to be a ring,a church,a dress,food,& witnesses. All that equals marriage & oneness. The pastor/priest/whomever has the "powe

It's funny how niggers reppin shit that don't concern them Ready 2 die for somebody who don't even claim them. Wonder why the white folks got everything niggers lack yet can't see why they call you by that name. Say you "Pimp hoes!" but Crackers pimp you just the same. Ain't got no blacks with power cause we can't support nobody who ain't talking bout how he love hoes, slang dope, and pop them thangs but when his brother lie dead in the gutter he now yellin how,"Homie didn't deserve to die!" Black kids gone missing but don't nobody care. Gulz gone wild cause Daddy wasn't there. Fellaz don't see no future for themselves We hate racist, slavery, and anybody who don't see BLACK as right My bad BLUE as right No my fault RED! Shit Red leaves you dead, nobody blue true and it be them coloreds who do it to you. Fuck this shit cause the only color I'm after is the PEARLY GATES of HEA

This will b the most selfish shit I eva wrote: I'm glad I'm not married, glad I don't have ur child cuz 2morrow is not promised & if I lost u but had to live wearing ur name/see ur face daily a constant reminder of the love we made... Is not a life worth living. Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.9

No sex but so whipped. In a state of bliss from our conversations. I can't believe casual words got me feeling like this, this cake that we baking cuz it's not game that you spitting, emotions flowing out ur mouth as if Niagra was formed there. I'm smiling in my sleep waiting for us to meet. Feeling like u the Drake to my Alicia or should I say Swizzie to my heart Beats. Yea, I'm open like Wally World. Come explore."Time is only wasting so why wait on eventually?" So I'm ready. Whenever u ask, that will be my response... Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.9 Music Playlist at MixPod.com

She gave you what I wouldn't. You gave her what you shouldn't. Now this mess is spreading rapidly. Where to go? What to believe? How do you start over when everything is still new? How do you let go by still holding on?

1st of all when I don't have the guts to say how I feel I write & if 160 characters is not enough I go to my online journal plus right now I'm too tired to go get my journal,dust it off,find my writing pen,turn on the light,sit right, & write my emotions ... Bare with me. *sighs* How true all of it is idk I believe less than half of what I hear nowadays & truthfully I don't like that about myself but that is another blog w/in itself. However it was just said to me that I have not been saying I love you lately. Not orally at least. I admit I don't like saying it first. Childish maybe but it is because of an insecurity that I think that if I initiate those magic words they will be said back by obligation. My love for you leaks out of my heart as if there is a bullet piercing it. I hate telling you that while thinking you don't believe I do. Honestly I rather show it than say it since actions speak louder... Look I just don't like saying it first I

I was told I had low self-esteem & didn't know what love was. For those reasons I "settled". I might not know what love is but I know what it is NOT! Love is not never forgiving. Love is not harboring hate. Love is not always easy or never painful. Love is not fearless. I am not settling. Nor am I running. How can I ever find love with my hands tied behind my back & my eyes glued shut? Love is supposed to hurt, like they say what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. I'm not dead yet. Every minute of every day we find new things we enjoy about each other. They might be things we once overlooked or took for granted but nothing stays the same. We are loving the constant change and growing. Love is supposedly a battle. Well if we both fighting to be together isn't the prize each other's heart? I don't care if I lose half of myself in this relationship if I am destroying half of my partner as well that way we can complete each other...

Fathers' Day is in less than 24 hrs & I notice some ppl bashing them... here's my question(s): Prior to sex did u discuss HIS opinion on children & parenthood? Was there protection used by BOTH y'all? Did u discuss alternative plans (adoption,foster care,Plan B pill, abortion)? What was his future plans (career [u should have ran if rapper],location,education)? If u didn't care enough to get to know him,why did u "know" him? Yes, it takes two to make a baby but it should take two to decide to keep the baby... usually thou it doesn't. Also yes females are left with the (most) responsibility, if u are not doing what u expect the father to do/more then u are a dead beat also. U can't want him to work while u get welfare. U can't want him to spend time when u leave ur child w/ur parents so u can go be carefree. U can't be bitter & bitchy because he moved on. Families are parents,children,friends,(pets) that all LOVE one another. If u ma

I am always the strong one. My best friend shot & killed yet I pulled myself together to hold those that were falling apart. My life is far from perfect nor do I pretend it is. I don't cry about it because there would be no time to wipe away tears and snot. I find it ironic how on May 18th 2010, I posted on Facebook that "Eating pizza while watching The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles...Tell me my life isn't great." & shortly there after I received a phone call that would impact me & cause me to literally choke on my words. However ,that was day 1, by day 9 of my real-life nightmare,I uncovered information that will haunt me for probably the rest of my life. Due to the fact everyone have their own issues I was forced to carry not one but two heavy ass burdens alone. ... This can't be real,no this can't be life...

 Offend everyone; go to hell with nothing on your conscience.

I came here for a perm, she came to kick it, he came cuz he had no choice now we three are isolated frm the artists,sitting in the back room discussing love. U would think this was odd because me and him are a couple yet we tell the blunt truth. We discuss monogamy,heartbreak,hoes,and marriage. He doesn't think he can break my heart, I think>strike< I know he can. I have even went to the lovely Brook's site [www.absolutebrook.com] & stole this quote for my life:"I don't spell out the word L-ve, because LOVE is the REAL four letter word. Not "fuck". Fucking is easy, not l-ving me is more offensive." -Brook Lynne...Since this conversation a LOT has changed in her life,in his life,in my life. I actually stumbled cross this draft & the title made me smile. We make mistakes that is human... & I know tht there is LOVE out there for each one of us. Who are outsiders to tell us what is OUR defination of LOVE?... Then watchin the Game Marathon y

Everyone knows how expensive their college textbooks were at the start of the term. Here we are, it’s the end of the term and the bookstore wants to give you pennies on the dollar for your books. I say forget the bookstore! You can make some real dough by going to www.chegg.com/buyback/ . They’ll pay you top dollar for your books, like $40 each – and no lines because it’s online. What could you do with double the money the bookstore would give you? Chegg even pays the shipping! How about the fact I have a promo code CC122372 that gets you an extra $5 with your order? GET lots of cash + GET more cash = A green way to sell your books Go to www.chegg.com/buyback/, you can get your used textbooks sold now. After all, you read your books cover to cover, or at least that’s what your professor believes, so you should be smart enough to know where to sell them for the extra buck, smarty pants. .

Every since “unthinkable” came out females have been quick to say they ready.ready for what,thou? What is the unthinkable ? is it sex?… Imo it’s marriage & spending FOREVER together as one. I mean she says IF you ask me,hmmm proposal,much? but let us play with the sex being unthinkable… Are you ma'am on birth control? Sir, do you have a rubber in your possession? I only ask because being ready for sex and being ready to be a parent are TOTALLY different… but I'm tired of talking bout SEX (yes I just said tht {thou I'm still in shock frm utterin those words}) I like the idea of tht bein a song about progression in a RELATIONSHIP… this by far are my favorite lines “"This is exactly how it should feel when it's meant to be... Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually?” Only because I’m a tad old-fashioned I like the thought of young marriages like my grandparents had. I mean yeah we could date for umpteen years then be like ok ready to settle down but I mea

So my home boy/lil brotha comes to me like,"Beau, I have a problem…” Me: “What’s wrong?” Him: “I am a sex addict.” My response was simple, “Go fuck your lady,duh!” But see that is where the trouble lies, he’s truthfully not an addict. He just can’t live up to this “every girl’s dream” that he has made reality. He has made this chick wifeY (I emphasize the y because that IMO is all the perks w/o the VOWS & ring) He has shacked up with her, started a family all before their 21st birthdays. Idc at what age you start drinking &/even clubbing but until you’re of legal age you haven’t truly experienced living. Any who he has done ALL this, to now have a “half a mid-life crisis”. You can not just wake up now and be like you don’t LOVE her. I mean why YOU GET her pregnant? See I know of plenty of guys who expressed they KNOW when they got a chick pregnant, so you can not as a MALE tell me you did not plan to be a father prior to the raw dawg & nutting in a female. What qual

Y don't u love me is probably ur ex's new ring tone, call tune cuz tht's her question to u but to get the answer she goin bout it all wrong Tryin to point out her qualities deny any flaws Whining how u need her but I'm sure u're well taken care of ova here See u can pay for school w/o buying class & she not too good w/giving knowledge Me? I’m a full time student,full time worker & still quick to ride O she stays home so she can cook I always got ya plate ready & the lil 1 in a fresh fit No dirty nose & hair stay cute His boys said u a good woman? Rlly cuz I heard'm say u don't compare & get tht u got ass outta here He a titty boy,my dear *lgi this is jus for fun* "Why Don't You Love Me" - Beyoncé from Beyoncé on Vimeo .

Please baby forgive me, mommy was young, mommy was too busy tryna have fun now I pat myself on the back for sending you back cause GOD knows I was better than that to conceive then leave you the concept alone seems evil I'm trapped in my conscience I adhere to the nonsense listened to people who told me I wasn't ready for you But how the fuck would they know wat I was ready to do?…  this was written by my friend Shanequa Bennett but i had to take it she put into words wat i couldn’t ♥♥♥ *** updated: it is well known i don't listen to Nicki & the chick i got it frm failed to tell me so much thnks for the enlightment ***

Evrybody wanna rhyme they claim it's the only way 2 eat but I put my head in these books & make a nigga pay b4 he beat U can call it ho'in if u want 2 but it's survival 4 me I never asked 4 nothin cuz who can I turn 2 I do it all on my own so my siblings have some1 to look up 2 I was told nothing is free so y sell myself cheap U might have his child but he's tryin to marry me In his eyes u no housewife & jus his baby mama ain't good enuff 4 me....

Books b4 Boys Because Bankrolls Buy Benzos ! Not trying to downplay ya’ll but my goal is not to be a baby mama but an educated lady. I notice how guys crank their radio up when Webbie or Ne-Yo mentions an independent chick and everyone knows that Boys Bustin Brings Babies. So how can I be the woman of your dreams if I let you hit and leave? Like that new BMW on the lot my value depreciates once you get in and take a ride. I want to be the lead lady in your life. We young what’s the rush? Close your eyes and imagine your ideal wifey type. Is it just me being me thinking that you envision a female Diddy, making moves and money, looking good on your arms when she accompany you to your meetings and public outings? Or do you really see a chick like So Hood, got you looking like a fool even in the ‘hood? You ain’t got to lie cause I already made up my mind. In the end the truth is in the saying, “A MAN is only as GREAT as the WOMAN BEHIND him”. So you can choose what kind of lady you want to

Had the best thing to ever happen to you slowly slip away becuz u wouldn't turn ur pride off. Wanted some1 to love you for you yet you not happy with yourself. So you try to force your negative views of your mirror image on others to make them see you how you see yourself. Then you beg them to love that Monster.You complain how mistreated YOU are & how unloved. That's not the real you, that's some alter ego you created. No1 likes that new person but you swear it's really you,that you never changed. You don't know what you want out of life, or a spouse, or from yourself. Maybe you should give loving yourself a try instead of the self hate & pity.

The color of my skin is actually brown when based off of actual colors/crayons but when described as to my nationality it is black or negro or noir or niger depending on what language you speak. Here in America home of "take it & make it yours" approach, we have "stolen" the French, Spanish/Portuguese, & Latin words but altered them to make it our own. & how is that niger is pronounced ˈnī-jər ( http://www.merriam-webster.com/cgi-bin/audio.pl?ggnige01=Niger )  & negro is ( http://www.forvo.com/word/negro/ ) yet we now have the o’ so popular pronunciation ( http://www.answers.com/topic/nigger ). Being that the originators of the word/term/phrase/ whatever were not hmm I guess African-Americans (AAs) would be the best choice, how is it AAs feel that they are the only ones able to say/use it? *ok so I guess that "take it & make it yours"  thing is not limited to Americans (Kanye shrug)* But AAs dropped the er in Nigg & added an a &a

Every time he came thru, he was eyeing a shawty. No doubt in my mind his thoughts were naughty. After awhile he stepped his game up and asked that they spent some alone quality time. But not to be too mannish he asked to take her out. Spending money for her company that’s how she saw it. Slowly but surely they begin to kick it. He bragged bout his bank roll and the lavish ways he spent it. She knew if she offered to spread her legs he would be straight game so she saw no difference in being in it to spend it. He wanted to fuck, she needed the bucks. He put it out there and so did she. Had no shame in putting a price on her pussy. He constantly talked of the things he wanted to do both sexually and finances too. But when she wasn’t in the mood then he claimed she wasn’t being true. Now all of a sudden she a gold-digger instead of his boo. You put the money on the table, it’s yo’ fault she took it. Sex was all you were after so this was a win/win on both ends. Tried to make it fair for o

I h8 havin 2 swallow tears & clear my throat so no1 hears the strain in my voice I fake this smile so well that the pain in my eyes r missed My exterior is sooo tough others won't believe that on the inside I'm crumplin it's not jus because he's gone it's because evrythin that was once right is now wrong It's because every show,picture,or song is a reminder of when things were carefree... What if I believed more in me,in us & pushed more for we would this had been avoided? I need to see a clairvoyant to get an idea of how much longer this will last because if it's headin further downhill we need YOUR hand to grasp I mean I'm reachin for it now yet I'm not sure if I'm able to receive handouts aside frm student loans it seems when I ask for assistance I'm always turned down tryin to remember & focus on that positive spirit,positive mind,positive outcome but how is that valid when life itself is predetermined?