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( self haircut having a me,myself,and I moment)

November 22,2009 I think... My life was almost over. Literally everything spun out of control. I crashed,I was broken,and my pieces never were put back together. Lies,decit,secrets,mysteries,friends,lovers,court,jail,probation,eviction,unemployment,moving,prostitution,trusting,non-believing,praying,crying,fighting,drinking,fucking,pregnancy,births,weddings,illnesses,surgeries,flat tires,broken windows,starving,stealing,begging,avoiding... This has been my life for almost a year. I want to change everything about me. I want a new beginning. & This isn't even a step in tht direction...

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Closure

Realizin Obvious BS Leavin Is Satisfyin Aint It Kuz ii Don't See how far things will go w/o changin Jus Actin Now U Ain't Ready Yet to grow up & accept the reality rii in front of u Maybe A Recess Can Help put things in prospective Me And You and others Are Puttin Rlly Intense Limits on the great possibilities of accomplishments tht can be achieved Makin Other Nonsense Tremendous And Necessary Although it isn't Don't Even See It do u? Tellin All Responsive Audiences who are willin to listen & agree becauz Straight Accecptin Shit Hasn't Appealed 2 u You Exempt Logic Livin A Great Imaginary Retarded Life Although Just about no one understands it not even u Please Realize Everyone Considered It(life) Opposing Ur Selfish ass but felt sorry for u @ the same time Keepin ur Ego Is Staggerin How Accurate ur view is Recognize Our Beautiful Eternity Remains Taboo

Him & I

ever listen 2 NEYO'S PART OF THE LIST well my bae had it on repeat last night til he went asleep& it inspired this---> i love more than just him i love his life his goals his aspirations the fact that he is a loving & caring father is entriguing the way he shows emotions when it comes to fatherhood makes me glow idc what anyone says (includin a bitter me) he is a beautiful person inside & out that's why he won't let me go his flaws are what i love my difficulties(bka bratty bitchness) is what he admires Yes we agrue yes i make very slick remarks tweets bout him but have i left him? has he left me? no!!! we have no kids to use as an excuse we cant leave each other alone simply becuz it isn't in the MASTER SCHEME OF THINGS right now layin here w/him holdin me in his sleep while im bloggin makes me think he might b tellin the truth bout not cheatin... idk... i do kno noone is perfect but to him i'm as close as it gets & vice versa ... Besos Te amo be...

A Mother's Cry

All you niggas are my sons... & I have failed you. Should've kicked you out the nest but instead I cradled you. I should've taught you responsibility but instead I took care of you. I should've programmed your mind, so the streets couldn't brainwash you. I taught you about life and how to survive, tell me what exactly is it do y'all feel you were deprived? I did things the way I did because of the choices I made. Who are you or the streets to be throwing my parenting shade? My primary function was to provide for you not the other way around. You came from me that is why I'm ashamed of your choices now. I did what I had to do for the consequences of my actions. I gave you life but the streets want to use you for their own satisfaction. They got you thinking they fathered you. Did the streets do a DNA because I don't recall being they're boo. I fed you from my bosom to ensure you ate, when were the streets ever in a kitchen fixing you...

Hermosa & the Bi☥ch

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