Hermosa & the Bi☥ch

Ok with New Year's Eve tomorrow & ppl especially me talkin bout; New Year,New Me or no more drama or out with the old, blah blah blah, I decided it best I inform my friends of what changes they need to make as well. I'm all for lovin thm as they are,this have nothin to do with love. A real friend keep it 100 so I'm being a real friend. Resolution numero uno: K.I.T. Keep in touch. A text/tweet/Facebook me at least twice a week. Idc if it reads, "Bitch, I'm alive." I mean tht info is nice to know. Resolution B: Plan things. That means think of something you my friend like, Google search it + LOCAL city & state, click every link if need be til u find 1 tht is what u lookin for, find out time & places. Then txt/email/tweet/Facebook event me bout it. I will ignore msgs suggesting we hang out BUT I got to plan it. Next resolution: Be dependable. If the only thing u can be depended on is bein UNDEPENDABLE,u failed life. Better get some busine...

I h8 havin 2 swallow tears & clear my throat so no1 hears the strain in my voice I fake this smile so well that the pain in my eyes r missed My exterior is sooo tough others won't believe that on the inside I'm crumplin it's not jus because he's gone it's because evrythin that was once right is now wrong It's because every show,picture,or song is a reminder of when things were carefree... What if I believed more in me,in us & pushed more for we would this had been avoided? I need to see a clairvoyant to get an idea of how much longer this will last because if it's headin further downhill we need YOUR hand to grasp I mean I'm reachin for it now yet I'm not sure if I'm able to receive handouts aside frm student loans it seems when I ask for assistance I'm always turned down tryin to remember & focus on that positive spirit,positive mind,positive outcome but how is that valid when life itself is predetermined?