Hermosa & the Bi☥ch

All you niggas are my sons... & I have failed you. Should've kicked you out the nest but instead I cradled you. I should've taught you responsibility but instead I took care of you. I should've programmed your mind, so the streets couldn't brainwash you. I taught you about life and how to survive, tell me what exactly is it do y'all feel you were deprived? I did things the way I did because of the choices I made. Who are you or the streets to be throwing my parenting shade? My primary function was to provide for you not the other way around. You came from me that is why I'm ashamed of your choices now. I did what I had to do for the consequences of my actions. I gave you life but the streets want to use you for their own satisfaction. They got you thinking they fathered you. Did the streets do a DNA because I don't recall being they're boo. I fed you from my bosom to ensure you ate, when were the streets ever in a kitchen fixing you...

It's funny how niggers reppin shit that don't concern them Ready 2 die for somebody who don't even claim them. Wonder why the white folks got everything niggers lack yet can't see why they call you by that name. Say you "Pimp hoes!" but Crackers pimp you just the same. Ain't got no blacks with power cause we can't support nobody who ain't talking bout how he love hoes, slang dope, and pop them thangs but when his brother lie dead in the gutter he now yellin how,"Homie didn't deserve to die!" Black kids gone missing but don't nobody care. Gulz gone wild cause Daddy wasn't there. Fellaz don't see no future for themselves We hate racist, slavery, and anybody who don't see BLACK as right My bad BLUE as right No my fault RED! Shit Red leaves you dead, nobody blue true and it be them coloreds who do it to you. Fuck this shit cause the only color I'm after is the PEARLY GATES of HEA...

I h8 havin 2 swallow tears & clear my throat so no1 hears the strain in my voice I fake this smile so well that the pain in my eyes r missed My exterior is sooo tough others won't believe that on the inside I'm crumplin it's not jus because he's gone it's because evrythin that was once right is now wrong It's because every show,picture,or song is a reminder of when things were carefree... What if I believed more in me,in us & pushed more for we would this had been avoided? I need to see a clairvoyant to get an idea of how much longer this will last because if it's headin further downhill we need YOUR hand to grasp I mean I'm reachin for it now yet I'm not sure if I'm able to receive handouts aside frm student loans it seems when I ask for assistance I'm always turned down tryin to remember & focus on that positive spirit,positive mind,positive outcome but how is that valid when life itself is predetermined?