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Keep your head up! Live and let GOD! My past is just that and my future is whatever I make it. Nobody knows what I can accomplish so I won't let them tell me what I am destined to be. Negativity will not surround me, will not harm me, will not be me nor control me. Please take this how you want to but you if you on that BULLSHIT then you must get to walking. I'm cleaning up my life so to all that strife I now say "Goodbye!""Deuces!" Can some1 please tell me what have I done to cause all this negativity to be in my life. I did not ask 2 b born that was God's choice. I did nothing to no1 but as a child I was picked on whether it was @ home or @ school I was miserable. As I got older the situations got worse. I lost my baby brother when he was 18 months old. He was born w/ half his brain. I was 7 and my mom didn't rock me that night. I loved reading books and I still do so. I love music all kinds and still do. So I would put my music on and curl up in a book. I created a fantasy life for myself. 1 where I was always happy and things went accordingly. I kept to myself. @ the age of 13 a grown man walked in2 my room and tried to molest me. He thought I was sleeping and I was soooo scared. I ran to my mom. but I returned to tht room, tht bed... my room, my bed and cried myself to sleep holding my doll... She has & will ALWAYS BE BY MY SIDE. I blamed myself for that I thought it was my fault no1 ever told me it wasn't.  I built a wall around my heart & vowed to NEVER LET ANYONE IN. Pee-wee found a way I loved him. He was killed a few yrs l8r. I added a fence around that wall. SO FUCK YA'LL!!!! EVERY1 CUZ U MOTHERFUCKERS JUDGE ME & DON'T KNOW ME. I HAVE DONE NOTHIN TO NO 1 NOT A DAMN THING BUT U TALK LIKE U KNOW. WHO THE FUCK R U? HUH, IF U'RE LIFE SO GRAND THEN U SHOULD BE TOO BUSY TO WORRY BOUT ME!  SO IF I'M AN ANT IN UR WORLD Y THE FUCK U STRESSIN ME... OH yeah cuz ur the ant and I'm the GIANT! GET ON MY LEVEL HOES!!!!!  I'm GOD'S child now No longer is the devil in me. If u wanna judge me KNOW ME!



"Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it."-CONFUCIUS

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