Had the best thing to ever happen to you slowly slip away becuz u wouldn't turn ur pride off. Wanted some1 to love you for you yet you not happy with yourself. So you try to force your negative views of your mirror image on others to make them see you how you see yourself. Then you beg them to love that Monster.You complain how mistreated YOU are & how unloved. That's not the real you, that's some alter ego you created. No1 likes that new person but you swear it's really you,that you never changed. You don't know what you want out of life, or a spouse, or from yourself. Maybe you should give loving yourself a try instead of the self hate & pity.
I have a weird living arrangement. I can't even go into detail it about because quite frankly I don't know/understand it. Technically the place is in his name but it's been "our" home for 3 years now (well 1 if u go by the time I updated my license). Somehow I went from a live in lover to a maid. I cook 99% of all cooedk meals we &/our guest eat. I CLEAN the house. (He vacuums the hell out of it tho & every now and again he puts a shine on the porcelain in our (aka HIS) bathroom. 😆) What sparked this post was the fact that I ran a sink of dish water to wash a few dishes before bed but before I knew it, it was 2 am & I was borderline tide and they weren't clean. Then I thought about the dishwasher needing to be started. Instead of asking him, I figured I'll just get up a little earlier to knock those things out. Let him tell it EYE (I) leave a mess in about 3 rooms in the house compared to him in 1. (Not true but I'm not about...
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