Hermosa & the Bi☥ch

Maybe it's because I'm not a parent. Maybe because I'm a pisces living in a fantasy world. Maybe because I'm not materialistic. Maybe idk the maybe but I don't get stressed or depressed or broke over trying to provide the perfect Christmas. I recall making gingerbread houses with my mom, sister, cousins, and a few friends. Baking cookies for Santa... and ourselves lol. Dressing my doll baby, that I got the Christmas I turned 6 (& still have), in my bro's christening outfit and putting her under the tree. Waking up in the morning to so many gifts. Honestly I only remember asking for a specific gift, not from Santa but from my dad, Tickle Me Elmo when I was 9. I didn't get it but Santa, my mom, and my aunts and uncles got me so many gifts I still had an enjoyable holiday. [My dad lived in Georgia, I lived in Indiana I don't know how him and mom went about finances] Anyways, I don't grasp the concept of buying a bunch of video games or adult elec...

  April showers bring May flowers But what good comes of October's rain??? My tears are masked by every drop and I pretend to be scared of thunder To hide my pain I found the red October It's the month covered in my loved ones blood My heart was buried there If we really reap what we sow Maybe one day I'll be able to love again

In order to have a relationship, there are supposed to be halves coming together to make a whole. However in some circumstances, there is still a void from one of the halves. So they add on to try to get their own completeness. Some look at this as deception, lies, and cheating. Unless one has been in that situation like that they can't tell the whole story. Many people like to pity the other woman, saying that she makes herself available to a man that is not hers. However, most couples don't spend every minute of the day with their significant other. They schedule dates, plan ahead the nights they will be sleeping over. Is that not the same thing the other woman is doing with this man? Is he not spending part of his time with one female and part of it with another??? So who is to say who is his full-time lover??? Most people tend to imply that that the man is in full control of the relationship he holds with his many different lovers. Though many people would disagree ab...

"We're in a relationship but we're not.I mean when we together, we're together but when we're apart, we're apart. We do us." See that makes no sense to me. If you can not or will not acknowledge your partner except when the two of y'all are together privately how is that considered a partnership/relationship? I understand it ain't everybody business but seriously that is a cop out to justify your insecurities to why y'all ain't really a y'all. It should not be acceptable for your PARTNER to go publicly and deny being in a relationship then privately say to you, "We know what it is." When the partner who wants public acknowledgment has a private affair with someone else, are they in the wrong???

I've been away for... Quite some time. Partially becuz I wasn't sure what to write about. Partially becuz I have upset people with my words. This is my blog. I don't use others names. Well I rarely use them. Personal pictures are those I've taken with my own personal phone/camera making them my personal property & if they were sent to me I ask permission. I can't please everyone. That is why this is MY blog. I aim to please me... So with that being said I have some thoughts brewing ;)

So I recently met someone who was talkin bout they lookin for a lover. I asked what exactly are the qualifications for said lover? The answer was faithful,trustworthy,sexy, and updated their status to say they were in a relationship with said person because in the pass this person had a problem with I guess someone cyber cheating. In effort to keep the convo going I replied,"As a relationship progress then the status should be updated. I don't change my status to in a relationship after just meeting & kicking it. If we hang out & it's fun then I might change it to seeing someone." They replied, "I think we should just be friends." I laughed. Honestly, was my feelings supposed to be hurt? Haha but that is how a lot of people think a relationship ought to go. One person flirts,the other person flirts back & this is the only common interest. From there people try to build a relationship. I will not claim a relationship til I know favorite team, f...

Sitting here in the middle of a VERY heated disagreement about ... well actually idk what I just know that the statement was made that in general I am an impatient person. I admit I have proudly quoted Jay-Z "I got no patience And I hate waitin" but as I think more about it I disagree with that. My reasonings being that I know that there are 24 hours in a day. I like to have 6-8 hours of sleep. Which now leaves me with 16-18 hours. I currently clock in 3 hours at one location and 4 hours at another which is another 7 hours. So I now have 10 hours left to eat,shit,be social, watch tv, have sex, run errands, whatever. There is a 30 minute drive from home to my job so now I have 9 hours left to eat,shit,be social, watch tv, have sex, run errands, whatever. I try to be home getting ready for bed around midnight and tend to wake up round 6:30. If someone says they want to do something within those 24hours in a day but tell me at a certain time and show up later without notify me...

I'm playin lead in ur little play Don't need an understudy I'm ur Babii... All I'm waitin for is u To come & do all that u promised to U say u want this to be urz Well dive inside & fuck me till I'm hoarse My fingers take hold of your hard and sleek body As I whisper in ur ear, "O how I've been naughty" U anxiously shove me, face up against the wall Your left hand holding my neck firmly, The right undoing my work clothes Holdin me down U growl not to move At the control of your force I am weak & ur penis is @ its peak U take no ease puttin him in me I cry out in pain but that is the pleasure of our game I become more aroused as u pound me harder I plead with u to slow it down instead U turn me round, lift me up, From the front u enter now My thighs straddling your waist My juices can't wait They pour down ur legs I’m whimpering out your name, Forgetting to breathe We make our way to the bedroom Where it is ...

All you niggas are my sons... & I have failed you. Should've kicked you out the nest but instead I cradled you. I should've taught you responsibility but instead I took care of you. I should've programmed your mind, so the streets couldn't brainwash you. I taught you about life and how to survive, tell me what exactly is it do y'all feel you were deprived? I did things the way I did because of the choices I made. Who are you or the streets to be throwing my parenting shade? My primary function was to provide for you not the other way around. You came from me that is why I'm ashamed of your choices now. I did what I had to do for the consequences of my actions. I gave you life but the streets want to use you for their own satisfaction. They got you thinking they fathered you. Did the streets do a DNA because I don't recall being they're boo. I fed you from my bosom to ensure you ate, when were the streets ever in a kitchen fixing you...

I’m goin insane from emotions I can’t explain. I created a ton of playlists dedicated to you. But when it comes down to it verbalizing, I get lock jaw. I know every time you leave. I miss you. And every time I claim it’s over I don’t want us to be through. Love is an emotion I just don’t trust…. You have ROBbed me of my heart and all logic. So when I look to my future I see you apart of it. I can’t think straight when I’m around you and I can’t breathe when you are away. In my life I want… I need you to stay. I love you more and more every day.  Always, Your baby

-this was contributed by my buddy Truth- Kissin and suckin on ur neck U already kno i got dem Trojanz on deck. Kissin dwn ta ur waist line Babii it's time I make diz pussy mine. Head in between ur thighz No need lookin dwn hea babii juz close ya eyez. Eatin on yo sweet peach Time ta make ma tongue reach... U grip tha sheetz Fa ma head u start ta reach Ya body and legz shakin I make u cum now babii it's time fa love makin. I float ma boat inside ur ocean Givin u diz magic potion Bed rockin in dat bak, forth motion. Get up babii and bend it ova We aint done, diz aint ova. I hit it frum tha bak On dat azz u kno ima smack Babii arch it up Now guh throw it bak. Now push me ta tha bed Dnt ask questionz juz do wat i said. Climb on top, take control Lemme see how u make dem hipz roll. Wat u waitin fa babii letz go..

i met these two gorgeous girls with low self esteem & they are always crying bout how fake their ‘real’ friends are, so i occasionally send them quotes or pic msgs saying that they are beautiful but yet they don't consider me one of their REAL friends. That is funny to me. Ppl consider the ppl they went to school w/ & they hung w/then as their REAL friends but ppl who they meet later in life are they're associates. Thou these new ppl do more for them than majority of their old friends. Or because their old friend would fight with them instead of telling them to walk away like their new friend does, they value the old friend. But who is going to bail you out now? If u are almost thirty & your old friend still think y'all should behave like y'all did bout 15 yrs ago no matter if y'all have kids now, are they really good company? Can you take them out the hood? Or is it your desire to stay rooted there as well? Maybe I dream too much. Maybe I set too hi...

Ran from you to him cuz I knew there was a you and a her. Let's not discuss dates becuz neither one of us honest. We both agree to believe the lies, since we both agree we want to be in each other's lives. Flashbacks of what has been keep popping up like this a whack-A-mole game. Easy come,easy go is the sayin but you steady holding on. Like you harboring feelings. You've had long enough to make a decision. No more deceit. It's your life only you can decide how you live it. Wasting time chasing pavements,do you enjoy the taste of concrete? Murphy's Law: everything that can go wrong,will. You'll be the one left to foot that bill. It won't be soon before long...

So I've lived under a rock,inside a bubble,sheltered,isolated... whatever. I've missed out on a lot of "classic" movies. Here's the list &; thanks to On Demand & Netflix I plan to catch up on them. O if u got them let's have a movie night! 1.New Jersey Drive (Jan. 15, 2017) 2.White Man Can’t Jump (Apr. 23,2013) 3.Boomerang (sometime in 2012) 4. Menace 2 Society 5.Malcolm X 6. New Jack City 7. Jungle Fever 8. Juice 9.-Boyz N the Hood (sometime in 2011) 10. He Got Game 11. Get on the Bus 12.Dead Presidents 13.Rocky VI (jus saw I-V when ATL was snowed in) 14.Die Hard-all 15.Rambo-all 16.Pulp Fiction 17.Shaft *tha orginal or remake* 18. Booty Call 19. Love Jones 20. Sprung 21 .Scarface (Dec. 21, 2011) 22.Thelma & Lousia 23.Bonnie & Clyde 24.Strictly Business 25.Woo 26.Jason’s Lyric 27. Coming to America 28. Poetic Justice (Jan. 29, 2011) 29. Higher Learning 30. Harlem Nights *note* the ones tht have crossed ou...

KEPT Him a BLACK Girl It's the tale as old as time. Recently watching Jungle Fever (for the FIRST time) the women were complainig about the same thing in the late 80's,early 90's that they are complaing about now. That is,"Soon as he (a Brother) gets on he leaves for a white girl." However,I have noticed quite a bunch of black men who are married within their race. I've compiled a list of successful black men who kept successs and a black girl as their #1. #1 & #2: Will Smith & Jay-Z #3 Greg Jennings #4 Swizz Beats #5 Shannon Brown #6 Nick Cannon #7 Bobby McCray #8 Cory Hardrict #9 Carmelo Anthony #10 Big Boi Honorable mentains: Denzel, Duane Martin, Shaq, Steve Harvey, Boris Kodjoe, Snoop,Marlon Waynes,President Obama, Morris Chestnut, Omar Epps, & T.I. whereas MempHITZ & Daniel Gibson are engaged to be married to black women. So does this mean we can stop saying that now?

I'm sick of playing games Either I am or I ain't ya dame It's too cold for 6 Flags So take my heart off this rollercoaster ride Tryin my best To pump love into ya chest U got a wall around ur heart & I told u the deal from the start Claim u want honesty Well I wanna be ya main, How do we make that possible? U let other chicks hurt u Well let me be ur Dr. McDreamy I already see u in my sleep U haunt me like the Ghost of Christmas Past I want you in my present, building towards a future Can I be any more evident? I realized I gotta be less cold U anemic Hold me close I'll warm u U can't be a boss without a B Every King needs a Queen So no matter what angle I complete u... U complete me Let's stop using the word if Replace it with am When asked who's mine,I'm pointin sayin,"Him!" & when ya groupies start investigating , wondering are u with me, tell'm ,"Yes,ma'am!"

Back to B/tired of pretendin/I can't be this woman u want/I'm a phoenix/take me as I am/I worshipped & adored u/yet somehow tht bored u/yea hella females throw themselves @ ur feet/but when it comes to lovin u/we don't compete/Don't compare/ if u had nothin/u wouldn't have her/I'm around cuz of ur heart/put it in my hands/I'll hold it gently/but u chasing chicks who would/squirm if blood stained them/all I needed was a lil love/but u was too selfish to realize/love goes both ways/look in ur rearview who's waitin?/u could choose to continue runnin/or to man up & start commitin/but the farther away u go/the farther u are frm me/I won't always be a prisoner of the memories of we/so make a decision on us before I break free...